Funeral

Yesterday I went to attend brother John Davies' funeral to pay him the last respect and good bye. The funeral took place in south London cementory which I have no idea where was the place. Before I got off the train, I met a chinese lady with a little boy, when she saw me, she just asked me whether I was going to attend the funeral. Owh ! It was so obvious because I was wearing all black.

We were late for the funeral, and we met some more people in the train station whom also had no idea where was the cementory. Luckily after asking the direction from the local, we managed to found the chapel. There was a medium size chapel, but full of people and we had to stand outside of the entrance. John and Esther have lot of friends, with all kinds of nationality and races.




John was a great man and true English gentleman. I met Esther (Malaysian's chinese) in London Chinese Church many many years ago, and got to knew John as well. The last 12 years he was paralysed from waist down, but it didn't stop him do anything, he truely believed in God, and always had a great spirit and mind.




Everytime I phoned Esther (actually not many times, once in a full noon, but I need to make some effort to call her more often from this time onward), John was the one who picked up the phone, he always asked me "How are you ?" in Cantonese, and also spoke some chinese words with his cheerful voice. Oh ! I am going to miss him as well.



The funeral service was calm, cheerful just like John's spirit, and like celebrated John reborn again in the Heaven, no more suffering and he can walk again. After the funeral, I managed to get in the chapel to view John's smiley photo, and said a last good bye to him.



Before leaving my house, I prepared a pack of tissue in case I need to use it. To be my surprise I didn't cry at all. Please don't say that nurses see dying people all the time, and get heart harden and can not cry anymore.



The first time I attended a colleague's (from different department whom was Indian's Singaporen) funeral about 8 years back. I didn't prepare any tissue and I was crying from the service begin till end, I could not understand why my tears keep falling ?????? My both eyes were so red, and his wife came to hug me as well, she may be thought ????? why I cried that much ???? I also asked myself why ?????